Clandestine Soul

The Bleeding Rose

by AlyCab

In a hundred miles

I could still recognize you

You, wearing a favorite black shirt

Your strong personality

Your sweet smile

Those gentle touches you gave me

I miss so much

The way you fondle my hair

Like no one else could

I long for

Every beat of your heart

Makes me weak

No matter how I try to ignore you

I surrender in the night

I cry myself to sleep

Dreaming you’d be mine forever

You, looking deeply into my eyes

Your sweetest kisses…

Your gentlest touches…

Your warmest embrace…

All the pain just faded away

My world seem to stop

Wishing we would be like this for

Eternity…

monte -- for MONTEssori

ok, next week na ang start ng sandamakmak naming activities.

monday - seminar-worshop about sex and moral w/ Couples for Christ => wala sana akong balak umattend kaya lang biglang sinabi na etong seminar na 'to ang door namin to join the other activities. bwiset, 4days sana akong bakasyon kasi sa friday holiday. d lang yun ang dahilan ko, d lang para sa long weekend kundi dahil... sa umaga ang seminar ng freshmen and sophies tapos juniors and seniors sa hapon, ang ayoko dun eh habang nagseseminar ang mga frosh at sophies, andun kami mga seniors sa chem/physics lab kasama ang mga walangyang juniors! panira ng araw!

tue-sat(yata) - intrams pero hindi naman whole day, from 4-5.30...hahaha! ang cheap... hindi rin sana ako magpaparticipate kasi di naman ako "sporty-type" na tao kaya lang required eh, pag nagparticipate daw full marks na sa lahat ng SPS (special subjects --> PEHM) kaya ang ending, sa larong pinoy kami ng bestfriend ko. pareho kasi kaming hindi ganun ka sporty eh

january - may out-of-town trip ang buong high school department sa tagaytay tapos sa Caleruega sa Nasugbu at dun kami magse-stay, overnight daw kami. (hay! sa wakas!!! pinakinggan rin kami ng office! ang tagal namin hinintay 'to!)

              start na rin daw ng pagbbrainstorming para sa prom

feb - prom. sure na daw na sa Ayala Greenfields kami kasi member pala ang aming school directress dun. fine dining daw, formal, better food, better waiters and waintresses talaga daw naka uniform na. nakapag desisyon na kasi ako months ako na hindi na nga ako a-attend kaya lang nun narinig ko 'to...OMG i'm tempted! hahaha! but every time i'll think that they'll also be there, they'll be unseprable, they'll dance all night, laugh all night... i die. sabi ko nga sa friends ko, kasi they have been trying to convince me; sabi ko kanina baka maging emo ang ichura ko kasi baka umiyak lang ako dun ng umiyak edi magddrip yun make up lalo na yun eye-liner. ayoko naman ng ganun saka for sure naman in college i'll be attending a much much better formal parties. i also asked my friend, "ikaw ba, pupunta ka ba sa isang lugar na alam mong mamamatay ka?" syempre sinabi nia hindi, malamang naman diba?!

sori.jn ka ngkamali.

10:06:27pm, 11-15-2006

mei kramay ka sa pgiyak m0...pus0 q.

10:04:39pm, 11-15-2006

and2 q pra 2lngan ka mkalmutan ang past.

09:46:56pm, 11-15-2006

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Kw tlga aly.

09:37:21pm, 04-13-2006

cnU ung taoNg ayw mu saNa msktAn kaso ngaWa mu?

(answering the question: if "aly" is the answer, what would be the question?)

10:13:19am, 03-11-2007

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Owh. Mccra body clock mu nan.

02:02:35am, 01-02-2007

O. Msma mgpuyat.

01:59:22am, 01-02-2007

loving someone who can't love you back is like 50-50,

comatosed in hospital...

comfortably lying,

but unconsciously bleeding...

softly sleeping and

silently hurting...

continuously breathing yet

slowly dying... ='(

alyC

we might find ourselves pulled into different directions...

it's scary to think we won't be together in the next part of our lives...

but i believe that whatever miracle brought us together today will again take place

someday...

ayan,this quote is for you.hahaha! pero, wish ko lang,kahit...sige,kahit next lifetime na lang. alam ko hindi ikaw ang soulmate ko pero tanggap ko na naman un eh,matagal na...yun friendship lang naman hinihingi ko eh.

i may not be too good for you

i may not be the person you want me to be

i may not be too expressive for you to feel my love,

but here's one thing i'm wanna tell you and assure you:

"nasa iba man lahat ng hinahanap mo, iba pa rin kapag ako ang nagmahal sayo..."

should i smile because you're my friend?

or cry because that's all we'll ever be..."

in the book of life, every story is important;

every page has a different story.

but do you know what part of it completed my story?

it's the tale where i met you...

did you ever ask why God gave you

two legs to walk?

two hands to hold?

two ears to hear?

two eyes to see?

but why He gave you only one heart?

because, He gave the other to someone for you to find. =)

- sometimes, i doubt the existence of the One. they say there's always the right One for you. the One you'll grow old and spend forever with. the One who'll walk you home in the rain -- the right One. but have you ever thought of this:

if there's a right one, why do the wrong ones feel so right?

- sa love wala namang right or wrong...

pag alam mong tama ka, do it!

kahit ba mali sa paningin ng iba

so what?!

kung sakali namang mali ka nga

sino bang masasaktan?

di naman sila diba?!